Lately, I haven’t been writing as many blog posts as I would like to. I also had to pause my children’s book for the past two months.
The reason for putting my personal work on hold was simple: I’m currently in the middle of major life changes. I made a conscious decision to leave my previous full-time job to focus on a freelance career instead (whatever that means).
I have never felt so scared before.
Not only was I nervous and had no idea what I was doing with my life (spoiler alert: I still don’t), I had no clue on how to deal with this uncertainty. Stopping everything I had going on to free up space in my brain was the only way I knew how to figure things out.
As I was watching multiple motivational videos and podcasts, I re-encountered this particular talk from Simon Sinek where he explains the difference between being nervous Vs being excited.
To quote Simon, “when you’re nervous your heart races, you visualize the future and your hands get clammy.”
…and when you’re excited you experience the exact same thing.
So, what’s the difference? What could change if I stopped saying I was nervous and told myself I was excited instead?
Excited for the new opportunities, for the connections I can make, for all the great things I can do for myself and for my future?
Excited, not nervous.
What I lack in confidence I try to make up with a fighting spirit. That said, I started reaching out to people via email and put more effort into showing my work to others.
I made a list of all the things I was capable of doing and collected testimonials of how others perceived my work. Reading all the positivity made me excited and little by little I started to believe in myself again.
I stopped losing sleep worrying about all the things I didn’t know or couldn’t do, to focus on preparing for the things I could do.
I’m still amazed at how this little change in my mindset affected the outcome. Even though I’m still figuring things out as I go, I’m no longer afraid about how on earth I’m paying my bills the next month. I have work.
Today I can truly say that I’m excited (not nervous) about what the future holds. Uncertainty isn’t a bad thing, just an opportunity waiting to be taken.
No one has it all figured out. At least I sure don’t.
What are you excited about?
Drop me a line below, I’m excited to read what you think!! 😉